{"id":1956,"date":"2018-01-01T19:04:45","date_gmt":"2018-01-01T16:04:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.kakko-ii.com\/?p=1956"},"modified":"2018-01-01T19:04:45","modified_gmt":"2018-01-01T16:04:45","slug":"the-long-goodbye","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kakko-ii.com\/?p=1956","title":{"rendered":"The Long Goodbye"},"content":{"rendered":"

On the last day of 2017 Up-Front<\/strong> released an announcement. When those kind of messages start with “Concerning”<\/em> you can be quite sure that the news are not happy ones.<\/p>\n

This time an announcement told us that Maho Aikawa<\/strong> has graduated from ANGERME<\/strong> as well as from Hello! Project<\/strong>. This graduation of Aiai isn’t a great surprise but it’s quite sad as she is now one of those girls who are not getting a proper graduation ceremony. It’s also sad because I like Aiai and her uniqueness. She is always my space girl and my monster freak.<\/p>\n

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Let’s now look back and reminisce how it all happened. Here is Aia’s case in chronological order.<\/p>\n

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January 11. 2017<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Before first announcement Aiai had so strong panic disorder attack that she couldn’t continue her live performance with other H!P & ANGERME members.<\/p>\n

Concerning Maho Aikawa of ANGERME (Up-Front Link – 01. 11. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

. . . She had more symptoms like headache, vertigo, etc. than in the past but recently those symptoms were strong and increased. She took (again) a medical examination and had been diagnosed with a “panic disorder”. . . After this, according to her condition, she participated at the \u201cHello! Project 2017 WINTER ~Crystal Clear~ ~Kaleidoscope~\u201d form January 2nd but the symptoms appeared during the performance. . . After another medical examination it had been diagnosed that “a rest and a medical treatment for a while is necesssary”. . . For the moment she will take a break from her ANGERME activities.<\/em><\/p>\n

From Aiai’s announcement:
\n. . . I have been several times at the hospital and being diagnosed with a “panic disorder”. Recently the spasms became incessant and it even happened on the stage, so now the activities became difficult for me. . . With what the doctor told me “the first thing to do is to rest to be cured” so I am taking a break for a short while.<\/em><\/p>\n

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January 30. 2017<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

My mood in the end of January.<\/p>\n

Healing beams to Aiai (Kakko-ii blog – 01. 30. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

. . . From my point of view without Maho Aikawa ANGERME is incomplete. . . I miss our space girl & monster freak. I miss that sweet smile of hers which always have made my days brighter.<\/em><\/p>\n

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June 6. 2017<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

ANGERME released their new single “Ai Sae Areba Nanni mo Iranai \/ Namida Iro no Ketsui \/ Majokko Megu-chan”<\/strong> on June 21. Before this single come out MV “Namida Iro no Ketsui” (Tear-Colored Decision).<\/p>\n

A song for Aiai (Kakko-ii blog – 6. 6. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

. . . I\u2019ve quite mixed feelings about this ANGERME\u2019s \u201cNamida Iro no Ketsui\u201d music video and especially about song\u2019s lyrics. And I guess I\u2019m not the only one who\u2019s being concerned. . . This song clearly tells a story about Maho Aikawa and the rest of ANGERME. It\u2019s some kind of message from the group to their absent member. . .<\/em><\/p>\n

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July 12. – 13. 2017<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

On July 12. another “Concerning” announcement was posted to Hello! Project Official site. It was then clear that Aiai is not yet coming back.<\/p>\n

H!P official site announcement ( H!P Official site 07. 12. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

Aiai\u2019s hiatus continues (Kakko-ii blog – 07. 13. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

. . . It\u2019s still uncertain will Aiai ever make her comeback to ANGERME & H!P but there sure are encouraging news from her. She is feeling better now and has started to study at Uni for photography. . . Aiai\u2019s hiatus continues and there is no given date or even prediction when she might come back to business.<\/em><\/p>\n

On this blog post I also quote some main parts from Heather Stone’s (Ph.D.) article where she explains quite clearly what kind of mental illness panic disorder is.<\/p>\n

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December 31. 2017<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

And finally on the last day of year 2017 we are closing this chapter. Aiai has decided to say goodbye to the hectic idol world.<\/p>\n

Concerning Maho Aikawa from ANGERME (Up-Front Link 12. 31. 2017)<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

. . . Maho Aikawa has voluntarily decided to take a new road and ask to support for the new goals aimed by the members and the staff. Please everyone watch over them. . .<\/em><\/p>\n

From Aiai’s announcement:
\nEveryone, it has been quite a while. 11 months have passed since I am in a break from activities because of a panic disorder.<\/em>
\n Now I have almost recovered and because the number of fits has decreased, I have been able to attend university this spring. . .<\/em>
\n I have decided to graduate from Hello! Project as well as from ANGERME. . . The reason is I have the fear of having similar fits which occurred during my activities. . . And because I do not know if I have completely recovered from this disease, “coming back after a complete recovery” cannot be said. . . And more than this, making everyone worrying, as well as making everyone waiting, annoying the members, by thinking at the future I have chosen the road of graduation.<\/em><\/p>\n

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January 1. 2018<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Every time I watch stars and moon in the sky I remember Maho Aikawa. And I’m sure that we both look at the same moon. Yeah, there is only one moon sailing across the sky.<\/p>\n

Thank you Aiai for all those precious moments you gave me and all us ANGERME fans during your Hello! Project days! I wish to you best for the future. Love you always.<\/p>\n

zush<\/em><\/p>\n

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